It's all so consuming and darkness prevails.
Life is unexpected and leads us down scary trails.
When blinded when walking it's hard to choose.
Which way do I go? Which way will I lose?
As the days turn into months, I think things will improve.
It's weird to me that somehow nothing seems to soothe.
I call out to Jesus as I've been taught to do,
only, He doesn't answer me, and I feel like a fool.
Can darkness get darker? It sure feels like it can.
Where is this Son I've called on? Does He really understand?
He said He'd never leave me, but what do you call this?
I feel like He doesn't care and that I'm dead last on His list.
I get hit over and over again.
I get hit and feel like I can't stand.
The blows get harder and seem like they won't end.
Where have I gone? Who is this? It seems like a dead-end.
Just when I last expected, the Lord showed up and won!
Who was that girl--the one who doubted--who thought it was all done?
He was there all of the time regardless of what I saw.
He was there answering me every time I called.
"Don't give up now!" He whispered, "Things have just begun."
"Keep on pressing! Keep on standing! The battle is already won!"
"One day this will be over, and a memory is all you will have."
"One day this will be over and you'll rejoice and be glad."
"You'll see the bigger picture, how I molded you through this time."
"Your life will change, your heart will mend, and in Me you will reside."
"Keep praising girl, keep praising! This storm will pass you'll see."
"Draw near unto Me, and I'll do the same, it's done quite simply."
So when you're in that valley, the one that is lonely and hard,
keep holding on to Jesus, and please let down your guard.
Allow Him to hold you close. Allow Him to wipe your tears.
Allow Him to guide you even when everything seems unclear.
He knows what He is doing. He knows what you can take.
He knows the outcome. He's doing it for your own sake.
When all is said and done, and life has moved on,
you'll look back through this all, and thank God you were actually number one.
Thank you Lord for healing me. Thank you Lord for your grace.
Thank you for keeping me strong through your Almighty embrace.
Now the sky is sunny, the darkness has fallen away.
Can the light get lighter? It seems like it more each day.
By: Andrea Williams
I love this poem! It has given me hope to keep going, to keep trusting! Like you, I dreamed of becoming a mummy! Well, here I am with a wonderful son whom I love deeply but I feel like my whole world has fallen apart! Four months on and I'm crying out to God wondering when this will end! Thank u for sharing xxx
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